"The soul doesn't distinguish between good and bad as much as between
what is nutritious and what isn't." - Thomas Moore
It has been a long, trying year. Ugh... I have moved myself and my daughter out of the family home, gone through a divorce and the transition that goes along with the D word. It has been a roller coaster, and not the fun kind. I threw my hands up in the air and screamed all a lot, but it was no trip to Six Flags, that is for certain.
Amidst all the turmoil, I have found a bit of grace. I am most definitely grateful for having the strength and courage to leave a toxic marriage. I am also grateful for those who held my hand, and dried my tears along the way. I am grateful for my friend, Sally, who has boarded my daughter and I since April. I swear sometimes she is a guardian angel. I am also grateful for all that this experience has taught me. I do not regret being married, but I am grateful that I knew when it was time to go. Timing is everything. And now it is time to let go of some of the self-defeating thought patterns that are holding me back.
It has been a long year, but I do not have to keep carrying this weight of fear, rage and bitterness. It is time to give up as much as possible, and I am ready to just...let...go. Florence Welch said it best: "It's hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him out!" I really, really, really want to dance.
We are all in charge of our own personal inventory. What do you need to let go of?